Who cares?

A friend and I were discussing a particular restaurant that we both really like.  During the discussion I was reminded of a time in my high school years that I would eat at this restaurant every day but I would gorge and eat enough for 3 or 4 people.  Well that gluttonous action lead to me weighing 500 pounds.  I got to thinking about the underlying reason for the gorging.  I worshiped the ground that a  certain boy walked on in high school.  This boy never "told" me that he felt the same way about me.  However, his actions did show that he felt the same for me but I was blind to it.  Because of the fact that he didn't confess with his lips his love for me, I felt rejection.  I was rejected by everyone in my family from birth so I was hungry to know that I was loved.  Because I never got that affirmation, I subconsciously fed myself the love that I was missing.  It wasn't until late in my life that I learned how to take a step back and study people and why they do the things they do.  All the adults in my family had very serious problems both mentally and emotionally and they did the best that they could do with what they had.  My boy friend  and I became the best of friends and I learned that he also had very serious emotional rejection from his parents as well, in fact we had a lot in common.  I now understand that none of my childhood and how I was being treated was any fault of mine and I stopped blaming myself and kicking myself and literally punishing myself with unhealthy lifestyles.  I also know now that I am a beautiful person that Jesus and God love very much.  In fact, my name Sarah is a biblical name that means God's princess.  I am very proud of my name and I take it  literally to be very endearing to a very personal level, because God has kept me under his wing all these years and has taken very good care of me.  So...Who cares?  God cares and Jesus cares--That's who!  And if you are reading this know that he cares so much for you and loves you so much that he lead you to this site to read this post to know that you are not the only one feeling the things that you feel and that you are not alone.  He is always with you.  I pray that if you are in a similar situation that this will lead you out of a very dark and scary place in your life into the light of Jesus Christ!